Taking a deep, deep breath

I am starting a new job in a few weeks. I gave my notice today.

It is so hard to let go. My current job is my whole identity. It's my passion and it's my love. But I'm getting stale. I don't see what needs to be changed anymore. I'm in a rut and I know that it's time to move on. Still, I'll miss this place so much. I don't think I'll ever get another library job like this one.

Here's part of an email I sent when ordering items a few months ago :

If you have time, can you please send the brochures in the mail (and you’re right – it’s the blow job tips that I wanted – and I feel bizarre typing that last bit…)

Sigh. Yeah, I'm going to miss working here.

Out of the ether

Yesterday I received an email that made me smile all day. It was from a guy I met online about two and a half years ago. He had without a doubt one of the funniest most stand-out profiles I'd ever read. We emailed for a bit and then before we had a chance to meet, he met someone at a bar, and was decent enough to let me know that that had happened and that he was going to pursue her.

A while later, I noticed his profile online again - only somehow or other I didn't notice that it was the same guy. He had changed his picture and I was caught up in reading a different section of his profile. That's my excuse. I emailed him again. His reply pointed out [very nicely] that we had emailed before. He noted that he and the woman he had met at the bar had dated but it hadn't worked out. I was so utterly mortified that I hadn't recognized his profile from before that I almost didn't send him a reply. But I did.

I never heard back until yesterday.

Originally when I had never heard back, I just chalked it up to me being so moronic in not having recognized his profile. However, this guy explained yesterday that my email had gone into some bulk email folder on the dating site which he had not noted, and thus not checked, until a year and a half after I'd sent my reply.

I'm very impressed that he did get back to me. I will at least email him back. I'm in an open relationship so theoretically I could also set up a date with this guy. On the other hand I don't think that the Internet guy is the type to want to play the role of lover-on-the-side, and more importantly, I'm enjoying getting to know my man and don't feel like adding in anyone new at present time.

Trying to make an informed decision

So we have both an election in Ontario and a referendum tomorrow. The referendum is on whether or not we want to switch to MMP, which is mixed member proportional representation or something like that. I'm swamped at work and I'm trying to do my civic duty but honestly, I'm getting to the point where I just don't care. I'm reading the final report and recommendations and I can still see both sides.

There's all this discussion about our current system being flawed but isn't Ontario one of the most successful provinces in Canada? [I don't actually need an answer to that one. It is]. Why on earth are we starting with Ontario? Let's start with a province that doesn't seem to be as crucial to the economy. Also, I'd rather look at the federal system. Let's start with the next national election so that the whole country is on board or not.

Okay, this is the most inane blog post ever but I'm exhausted and I'm dealing with yet another yeast infection. I am happy to report that I found the secret holistic cure which is ingesting garlic capsules and acidophilus capsules, and inserting garlic cloves and acidophilus capsules directly at, er, the source. I don't know what is worse - the yeast infection or the election, but I do know that by tomorrow night they'll both be history.