Monday, May 05, 2008

Quitting

Like quitting smoking, I think one of the hardest things after a sudden break-up is stopping thinking about the person. I don't mean thinking in the way of, "Oh god, how will I ever survive?" or "what a fucking asshole" or "finally I'm free" or in my recent case, "Okay, what happened here?", but more in the way of hearing a news story or seeing something and catching yourself thinking that you should be telling your partner about it. And then realizing that that connection is suddenly gone. The other day I was talking with a group of people I had met through a friend and one guy was telling this hilarious story about gaming as a kid. I thought, "Oh R. would get a kick out of this story". And then I stopped myself.

It's strange but I found it easier watching the sex tape. It's not hard to imagine that I can have great sex with someone else. But I do find it always a jolt to lose that mundane daily connection with someone. That to me is what makes a relationship. I can't wait for the next.

6 comments:

CoffeeDog said...

{{{Snooze}}} I think losing the daily connection to someone is hard to get through. You can always call me if you need to connect :-)

Snooze said...

CD: I appreciate that, but it's not even a sad moment. It's just a process of thinking, "Hmmm. that connection is gone"

ChickenStrip said...

I would miss the connection more than anything.

Hugs to you, hon!

Freak Magnet said...

Do you find yourself wondering if you should call or write anyway? Because I've come close a couple of times. If I do, though, I feel like an ass immediately following.

Snooze said...

Chickenstrip: Yeah, it's like a little bit of purpose in everything you see/do and suddenly it's gone.

FM: I did send an email very shortly after our break-up phone call, but that was for us to meet and talk and I'm glad I did it.

ChickenStrip said...

God, that is so on it.

Yeah...who to share the little things with, right?